There comes a time in a relationship where everyone involved needs to take a step back and make sure they aren't in this for themselves. A relationship is about two people who care for each other and want to be with each other. Its not about yu and all yur friends. Sorry for asking yu to tell yur friends that I want us time. Sorry for wanting to spend time with just yu and maybe go to dinner or cuddle up and have a movie night. I don't think that it is to much to ask for. I have fought so hard to make this work that I am all out of fight. I am at the point where I don't care anymore. I don't want to be in this relationship where it is based solely off what yu want and not what we want as a couple. If yu can't take the time to work this out as a couple then we have nothing. There nothing left to fight for. If I don't make yu happy and yur friends do then don't be with me be single and do what yu want. I don't want to keep fighting about the same thing when it makes no difference to yu. I am just over it. I was just fine when I moved here being single and not having a care in the world. Then yu came in and changed everything. I was okay it and I fell in love. Stupid me for thinking that yu actually cared about me. It's crazy that someone can come into yur life and change everything so quickly. Like as if nothing mattered to begin with. As if this was all just a fucking joke for yur enjoyment. I have feelings and I do care, but as of right now I don't care and it would seem as if yu don't care either. And that is fine. Go and do yur own thing with yur friends, get drunk Nd party it up because I quit. I'm done. Over it completely. Sorry for intruding on something that didn't want to be intrigued on.
beezyyy. [:
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Shit.
I know that he is what my heart wants but my heart hurts. I just need space right now. I need to go and show him that I am the world to him. That I am what makes him happy. And if I'm not what makes him happy then okay. I understand. I can't force him to love me or care about me. But I do know that i put all my effort into it. I layed my heart out and hoped for the best. I know that things don't always work but damn if I don't try my hardest to find out. I hate this person that I have become when it comes to a relationship. I care to much and almost never get the same in return. ): I'm so angry and so upset all at the same time. Ugh. To top it all off, we had thanksgiving a day early and I bring food home for this fucker even tho I'm mad as hell at him it never seems to matter. I'm so over being treated like shit. I get a thank yu and a bunch of complaints on the food. Next time fuck yu and starve!
Ugh. Douche
How is it that in a relationship someone could care so less. I feel alone in this and I am over it. I gave up so much to be here with him and this is what I get. Disrespect. Ugh fuck this shit man. I hate him for this. He can do whatever the fuck he wants and I get nothing. I get yelled at for going to my mom's. Not like I'm out having fun. No I'm helping my mom clean and babysit. Ughhhhhhh. At 23 I never thought I would be in the dumbest relationship like this shit. I am so mad. And he's gona come home as if nothing ever happened and try n kiss me and say he loves. No nigga if yu loved me when I woke this morning I would have known where the fuck yu where. I am at the point where I want to leave him and never come back. I feel as if this relationship is pointless. ): fuck love yo.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Sit you down, I'll sing it to you all night long,
I've had a melody in my head since she walked in here and knocked me dead.
Yea girl, you make me wanna write a song
And it goes like ooh, what I wouldn't do
To write my name on your heart, get you wrapped in my arms baby all around you.
And it goes like hey, girl I'm blown away,
Yea it starts with a smile and it ends with an all night long slow kiss,
Yea it goes like this.
Hey girl, you make me wanna drive you home,
Get you outta here and get you all alone.
I don't know what it is about you, baby,
But I'm all messed up and it might sound crazy,
But you make me wanna write a song.
And it goes like ooh, what I wouldn't do,
To write my name on your heart, get you wrapped in my arms baby all around you.
And it goes like hey, girl I'm blown away,
Yea it starts with a smile and it ends with an all night long slow kiss,
Yea it goes like this.
Lookin' at you lookin' at me that way,
Makes me wanna grab my old guitar and play
Something like ooh, what I wouldn't do,
To write my name on my heart, get you wrapped in my arms baby all around you.
And it goes like hey, girl I'm blown away,
Yea it starts with a smile and it ends with an all night long slow kiss,
Yea it goes like this
And it goes like ooh, and it goes like hey,
And it ends with a kiss,
Yea it goes like this.
this song describes my mood at the moment.
love every single word.
Monday, July 1, 2013
xoxoxoxoxoxox ash.
xoxoxoxox ash.